i think i might be insane

i am up in the middle of the night writing a manifesto on how i am going to help change the world by creating art.

it will be a three year project in which i work to meet goals, create art, and donate thousands of dollars to charities.

it requires the creation of 2012 pieces of original art each year until October 31st 2012. that's 5.5 pieces of art a day for three years. that's a total of 6036 pieces of original art.

and the idea is to sell them all to raise money for charities (and to help support the therapy i shall need from the nervous breakdown of epic proportions.)

but it's real.
and it makes me feel.
and it keeps me up until 4 am making manifestos on how to do it all.
and i want to succeed in it, like i have never wanted to succeed at anything else.
so how can i ignore it?

the problem... well for starters i have never sold a piece of art in my life. and oh so many many more i can't even begin to list.

this is epic... and possibly impossible and yet it would certain throw me face first into a whole ton of my stuck. the question is do i do it or do i stay safe and small and in the comfort zone?


let's find out... check back here for crickets chirping or plans

this is what i know

a list created when trying to come to terms with life and it's challenges:

pain keeps people sedentary and craving safety
reflexology interrupts pain
i can read most anything
i can seek out and find information
i am creative
looking for miracles can make them appear
everyone is struggling with something at some level
tarot cards can trigger solutions in your subconscious
when you look for beautiful things, sometimes you find them
stuckness arises to slow you down and teach you about Fear. Self. Doubt. Pain.
the period following stuck is usually packed with joy and movement.
people think i am a faerie.

FREE stuff

so in my exuberance of finally feeling like i might kinda know what i am doing... i have added a whole new section to my contact form!

it is called free reports!

it's free

it's reports i've written (and mostly edited but you never know what might have been over looked)

what are the reports about?

there are nifty factoids on how reflexology reduces stress levels

or why a tarot reading rocks all your existential angst

or a free sample of the tarot e-book i am creating which gives you insight into card meanings

you can access the contact form of enlightenment here

and don't forget to follow me on twitter for your daily dose of tarot goodness, plus other goodies i post there once in awhile. there is a twitter feed right over there--->

twitter feed is on the side bar click it to follow me :D

i have a thing and it's a good thing

you know that feeling when things click...

when it all comes together in one instant... over a cup of tea, say

when you still don't yet know what it looks like, nor what it really feels like but you realize you aren't nearly as random as you once assumed...

i had one of those moments last night. drifting off to sleep i suddenly some how put everything together and BAM! i leaped out of bed scribbled notes in the dark and went back to sleep. this morning, i looked them over and realized that this was actually a) worth keeping b) worth developing c) a stroke of brilliance d) validation that i was not an idiot to pursue this path

i have a system... i have goals... i have a way that i work with clients and it is not nearly as random or scattered as i was beginning to think.

this is awesome.

validation on the front that reflexology, tarot, business skill development, ritual, energy work, house blessings and saving the planet all go together in one happy amazing THING...

what is this THING?

i have no concrete idea... it has no name... it has only a vague outline of form

all i know for sure is that i have 6 entry points, six ways in which to explore with me and progress and move and shake.

and now off to create salad... because THINGS must be fed.

more blabbering on MY THING will follow soon...