life on the edge

i am currently at the beginning of a writing sabbatical. for several years i have felt there were words stuck within me that need to be put into book form. i have no idea if this will be any good, if the book will ever be for sale or if i will even write 5 words. the point of this is that i leaped. i rented a house with a friend in port townsend and this has been one of the greatest YES moments in my life.

so many of us stay still. we debate, we ponder, we dream but we never act. i don't really have the money to be renting a house on the beach, nor do i have any vacation time to supplement my income. so this adventure is not without it's risks.

but that's the point.

i am 34 years old, i have maybe a good 60 years left on this planet. i can't afford to keep questioning and neither can you.

sometimes life desires us to act impulsive and irrational. you can always find another way to make money, another person to be in relationship with, another place to live.

you cannot get another life, nor can you live in relationship with yourself if you keep denying who you are and what you crave.

so here's to the brave people of this world. those who risk. who take radical and seemingly insensible decisions that may or may not pay off. here's to the dreamers who act on their dreams and the believers who just know eventually everything is gonna be alright, even if it's 30 years from now. and here's to all of those people who told themselves NO, and had other people tell them they were insane... when you say YES anyways, you are paving the way for countless generations to believe in themselves, to trust their instincts and intuition, and to always follow love.

and here's to me: you get a gold star cause even though you told yourself NO you did it anyways.

miracles arrive to those who look for them, seek them and act on them.

“…there is no use trying,” said alice; “one can’t believe impossible things.”
“i dare say you haven’t had much practice,” said the Queen. “when i was your age, i always did it for half an hour a day. why, sometimes i’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”

–lewis carroll


just a reminder that all is possible in this vast and amazing universe. just because you've never seen it doesn't meant it can't happen someday with the right vision.

it's all about love

these pictures were sent to me by a friend and they opened my heart, creating so much joy and tears of gratitude. this chimp has help to raise several tigers and leopards in her lifetime. sometimes enemies can be the best of friends when you open your heart to love.

sometimes life shows you miracles. often times it is trying to show you love. be open.

you know when life presents you magic sometimes it's all you can do to not run away.

it's terribly hard to stand in the beauty and majesty of the world.

it makes you feel small...

but if you can embrace this infancy you can begin to feel your bigger connection to the entire universe.

interview

WOW!

I just got a call from the West Seattle Herald and I'm going to do an interview with them tomorrow on predictions and trends for 2009.

Is this really my life?

chocolate prophecies

I just ate a Dove chocolate and the message inside told me to make a list of my dreams, which reminded me to actually post about Thursdays circle.

First we played with moon magic. Tonight, Sunday, is a full moon so we made three lists. First a list of things to release. On the full moon the moon is at it's greatest power, in the coming weeks it will shed it's light until 14 days from now it will be dark. In this time it is the perfect time to make a list of the things you need to release and burn or bury then so their hold on you can dissipate with the energy of the moon.

We also made two list to keep, one was of things you are thankful for in your life and one was of things you desire. The idea with this process is to do these two lists every 3-4 months and check to see if the things you are thankful for in your life were ever on your desire list. It is a sneaky way to keep track of your ability to manifest things in your life.

We drew cards from the Goddess deck and did brief intuitive reading for each other, stating only one word "hits" we got from looking at the card.

There was a brief talk about mythology, specifically origin mythology. I sent out a challenge to anyone who wanted to accept it to play with their ideas about the origin of the universe and humans. My intention behind this process is to develop a relationship with the way you view the world and it's stories. Some of us hold on to beliefs that no longer serve us but we don't realize we are holding on to them until we look deeper into ourselves and explore key issues. If there is conflict between the truth you are holding in your body (the one given to you growing up) and the belief you hold in your heart (the one you choose) there will be difficulties in making things happen in life. The conflict needs to be resolved and old beliefs need to be gently returned to family and society. If we know and understand how we believe the universe works, we can control the outcome of our daily existence a bit more. Spend some time journaling or collecting images about the way you believe the universe and humans came to be. This may take awhile to find all your stories. Then gently read or look through them and see if any are no longer authentic to who you are now. If so bless them and allow them leave.

Following this was a discussion of happiness. It seems to be my work right now to play with the idea of happiness and so I shared some of my insights. From all the articles and books I have been reading three things stood out most as to what made people happiest. Permission to fail, having the ability to take risks, follow dreams and know that there is a support system there to back you up seems key to me. Connection, specifically to other people and to nature. With out connection we are alone, how can there be happiness if there is no person or object of natural beauty to invoke, experience or participate with. Service if you find small ways to help other people, animals or the planet you are most likely a happier person.

We had a great discussion about these ideas and other thoughts were brought up by the group.

Last we played with manifestation. I had asked the group to bring something they were working on manifesting. We share challenges we had with choosing, scary manifestation stories that needed to be healed and read a great passage from the book Eat,Pray, Love about manifesting and having people spiritually sign your petition. We chatted while eating beautiful food and drinking tea and ripped pages out of magazines so that we could visually see the images or writing on a daily basis. For me, I have found that this daily bumping into the thing you are manifesting helps focus my energy and therefore manifest my desire in a more wholly formed way.

Last I left a suggestion for starting a journal solely devoted to Miracles, Blessings and Gratitude. Noticing the small everyday miracle, blessings and moments of gratitude can only serve to make you a happier person, more focused on the here and now , full of hope and waiting for the delight as you spot the next moment of small magic that enters your life daily.