questions

i love Havi and Shiva Nata i am so glad i found them on the internets!

here's to the wackiness of flailing my arms about for 3 minutes or less and it's incredible ability to move my crap and open my heart and make my shoulders less stone like

so prior to flailing my ares about i was down in the dumps. blah. unmotivated. exhausted. uninspired. a big poo-poo head. and now i am undoing all that with questions and flailing (not failing-flailing) because life is way more fun when you embrace your flailings

what do i need now?
sleep
the release of fear from my body
help?
space to relax into me
more shiva nata
some exercises and a hot tub


what is next?
sleep
letting thing percolate
reminding myself to stop digging up the awesome seeds i have planted
play! remembering what i do for play!
walks in the fall leaves, collecting leaves.

umm seriously... to stop worrying about this question is the very best thing that could happen in my life right now

what would help me?
walks
sleeps
to just STOP and breath, even for 5 minutes

what is missing?
groundedness
ease of mind, body and spirit
grace
solace
boundaries
FUN!
PLAY!
leaf kicking
what do i forget to tell myself?
life is about fun and taking things to seriously/stressing is how you get sick
if god/spirit/universe really do exist then why am i fighting so hard when i can just ask them for help

what is the most important thing right now?
sleep (i think there might be a repetitive pattern occurring here)
playing at chopping down things in your yard
walking in leaves
dancing
creating
remembering to embrace grace
asking the divine for help and receiving it


*look that heart is some of my new art and it's gonna live on my new website someday soon.

tired of waiting

i keep putting things off until the new website gets done...

well no more.

today i made new adwords campaign to get some fresh faces in here

and

I posted an article to biznik

you should go read it and vote on it :D
and if you don't know what biznik is... it truly is networking that doesn't suck go play!

ahhh the paradox

excerpt from marc lesser's blog

"A paradox is something that appears to be contradictory, unbelievable, or absurd but may in fact be true. Do less. Accomplish more. These statements present a paradox. Acknowledging, owning, and embracing the paradoxical nature of our lives, the lives of others, and the world can lessen our resistance to change and increase our effectiveness. At its most basic it makes us less tense and more open to happiness....

Sometimes we get caught up trying to resolve internal contradictions, thinking that if we can, we will solve our busyness. Instead, this effort can itself become the cause of our busyness and our scrambled bewilderment. Our complex minds, emotions, and personality traits are simply a rather wonderful fact of human existence. Accepting that can lighten and expand our self-image, making it more fluid. In a strange way it is a more accurate view of life. Embrace paradox and you increase self-acceptance, tolerance of others, and your own possibilities.

How would you describe yourself as a paradox?
How would you describe your life or work as a paradox?"

• i am shy and yet i thrive in public speaking
• i believe in the abundance of the universe and yet i cling to things and money
• i nurture people for a living and have a hard time receiving when others nurture me
• i am very intelligent and yet often mumble and don't answer simple questions
• i love being around people i hate being in groups larger than 4
  
• i dance with abandon with people under 5 yrs old around, i don't dance with adults
• my work is an evolution of who and where i am and yet i have to "define it" for marketing

birth of new things

first off i am in the process of compiling and creating a tarot book. this is exciting. i think it will just end up being a download things as i am not feeling inclined to make it long enough to bother figuring out how to formally publish it. besides downloaded books are the new "green" they save trees, water, ink and fuel. look for it late spring,early summer. maybe sooner if life continues to be slower here at the ranch.


i shall be on the lookout for an editor and someone who understands layouts and converting things to a download able format and ebooks stuff... anyone out there?


the next conception is a new blog this one all about the sh*t... wait i mean stuff life flings at you and how no adult never told you the truth about being an adult and well it's one part rant, one part obsessive movie and book reading , one part lost teenager, and well it's just plain old silly me and i needed it to be a bit separate from this so i did not have to pretend to be professional.

the lonely tomato

please help this amazing band go viral... distribute widely, watch often and comment with exuberance.

lots of great stuff

i have been cleaning out my google reader and wanted to share some great links:

first the charter for compassion. you have 35 hours to contribute your thoughts here.
this is a place to find common ground across ALL religion. from the website:

Compassion is a key and universal value in all faiths. The most urgent task of our time is to build a global community around this idea, where all peoples of the world can live together in harmony, appreciation and mutual respect. If we fail to achieve this, it is unlikely that we will have a viable world to hand on to the next generation. We believe that the religions of the world have a unique contribution to make and that is why we have issued this Charter for Compassion.

Second Authentic Happiness is a new movement happening in the psychology field. thank the gods someone finally figured out that depressing us with traditional psychology might not be the only option. anyway you can go participate in surveys and research studies online at Penn State University

and last but not least google earth and flicker have combined forces to bring you beautiful images from our magnificent planet. the images change with popularity and such so it's a site you can visit often.