i think i might be insane

i am up in the middle of the night writing a manifesto on how i am going to help change the world by creating art.

it will be a three year project in which i work to meet goals, create art, and donate thousands of dollars to charities.

it requires the creation of 2012 pieces of original art each year until October 31st 2012. that's 5.5 pieces of art a day for three years. that's a total of 6036 pieces of original art.

and the idea is to sell them all to raise money for charities (and to help support the therapy i shall need from the nervous breakdown of epic proportions.)

but it's real.
and it makes me feel.
and it keeps me up until 4 am making manifestos on how to do it all.
and i want to succeed in it, like i have never wanted to succeed at anything else.
so how can i ignore it?

the problem... well for starters i have never sold a piece of art in my life. and oh so many many more i can't even begin to list.

this is epic... and possibly impossible and yet it would certain throw me face first into a whole ton of my stuck. the question is do i do it or do i stay safe and small and in the comfort zone?


let's find out... check back here for crickets chirping or plans

discovery bay

this month away seems to be defined solely around water.

we live by the water.

the water falls from the sky.

the water forms big fluffy clouds that block out the sun.

i can't get enough to drink and the electric heat does not help.

i keep having to cross water to return to my real life and see people.

i use hot showers to get warm in the morning and sometimes before i crawl into bed.

the snow covers the hills around us at least once a week.

this area and this bay in particular seem very much like the scottish highlands and instead of a large body of salt water we are besides a giant lake.

we are still awaiting the whales to arrive.

i used to read descriptions about enlightenment and connection to the universe being about stillness and silence. spending a month time out here has shown me that those may be the path to get to enlightenment but God and connection is all about noise and movement. the tides never cease, the wind blows, the rocks tumble in the waves, the birds delight in treasures and each other. nothing is still or silent, but sometimes you must become still and silent in order to realize this.

more will come in time.

take one action daily that scares you

alright friends it's time to stand up and take action






click the image to get the rules of the game called life.

let's celebrate by doing on thing daily that scares the shit out of you, or just makes you a tiny bit nervous. i'm a day behind but that seems to be my style, jump on in or start whenever because it really does not matter when you begin it only matters that you begin.