on retreats and the processing that happens after

this weekend i was on retreat doing interplay and the oracle way with some amazing and talented individuals. here is the host Leah the others i shall find and link to them as i can


when on retreat it's like you are having a continuous inflow of information pouring into every pore of your body. there is nothing like a good retreat.

witnessing others processes and then finding answers for yourself in their experience. amazing!

but then you have to come back to the real world. and everything gets a bit wonky, strange and like you are moving through molasses.

in someways it is a brilliant opportunity to re-examine whats important and what is ready to be purged.

today while taking down the laundry i was hit with a huge wave of gratitude and sadness. i was so thankful for this amazing day, for the sunflowers, the heat, the clothes drying outside this late in September. so much simple joy and delight.

and then the sadness hit and i long to stay in this simplicity, to live as we once did where the daily tasks of tending to your land mattered far more then money. i didn't sign up to support my family for over a year, i expected things to flow easier for my spouse and i never thought i would still be in the same place i was last year at this time. yes i have learned so much and grown a tremendous amount but i am just as financially stuck.

had i known this was where i would be a year from now... well i would have made 3000 other choices. and i understand that this is an issue affecting hundreds of thousands of people so i am not alone, but that may also be why it hurts so bad.

so how to return to the simplicity and the gratitude and the ease. cause it exists side by side and if i can experience such grounded connectivity in a weekend retreat why can't i capture a piece of that for myself today.

perhaps i shall dance a bit to return to the trust that everything comes as needed and i am extremely blessed.

whatever is moving through it is a HUGE reminder that just because you have left the retreat you are still likely to be processing the information for days after. just know this and allow the feeling to come up and move out, then the new information can take residence.

life on the edge

i am currently at the beginning of a writing sabbatical. for several years i have felt there were words stuck within me that need to be put into book form. i have no idea if this will be any good, if the book will ever be for sale or if i will even write 5 words. the point of this is that i leaped. i rented a house with a friend in port townsend and this has been one of the greatest YES moments in my life.

so many of us stay still. we debate, we ponder, we dream but we never act. i don't really have the money to be renting a house on the beach, nor do i have any vacation time to supplement my income. so this adventure is not without it's risks.

but that's the point.

i am 34 years old, i have maybe a good 60 years left on this planet. i can't afford to keep questioning and neither can you.

sometimes life desires us to act impulsive and irrational. you can always find another way to make money, another person to be in relationship with, another place to live.

you cannot get another life, nor can you live in relationship with yourself if you keep denying who you are and what you crave.

so here's to the brave people of this world. those who risk. who take radical and seemingly insensible decisions that may or may not pay off. here's to the dreamers who act on their dreams and the believers who just know eventually everything is gonna be alright, even if it's 30 years from now. and here's to all of those people who told themselves NO, and had other people tell them they were insane... when you say YES anyways, you are paving the way for countless generations to believe in themselves, to trust their instincts and intuition, and to always follow love.

and here's to me: you get a gold star cause even though you told yourself NO you did it anyways.

miracles arrive to those who look for them, seek them and act on them.

abundance!

I am tired of living in a state of fear around money and this week the universe provided me with a mentor, Kate Phillips. She was so enthusiastic and exuberant and I just wanted to cling to her and download her beliefs right into my little brain.

I am planning on taking her 10 week coarse in the fall and am sending this out so others can join in shifting the universe. Plus I am trying to manifest a Seattle location for her to come to :D

Here is her information, so you can see if you are potentially interested as well. Feel free to pass it on to anyone else who you think might be interested as well.

living in abundance

the art of abundance

abundance what a magical word a-bun-dance can't you just visualize your breakfast rolls dancing with joy at being lathered with butter and eaten with large cups of tea.

silliness aside... I have just been re-exposed to my limiting beliefs around abundance, money and receiving.

As part of a magical group of amazing self employed women I was given the opportunity to read a secret new document centering around these concepts.

I walked away with so much hope in my heart and so much appreciation for my abilities as a service provider. I am finally getting it through my thick skull about how I really can help more people in more profound ways if I truly take remarkable care of myself first. At the core of this is working through beliefs that cause me to undercharge for the work that I do.

So get ready world Amy the person is separating herself from Amy the business and she's gonna clean house and create some seriously amazing things for her clients.

Look soon for some beautiful packages that are designed to create a truly unique healing experience and transform your life while providing stress relief!
I can't wait! and what an amazing time of year to be growing, so in alignment with the magic of summer.

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PS my new mantra is "I am now open to receiving" especially some yummy a-bun-dance with butter please :D